I AM GOING CRAZY!!!!

Overflowing with love for Tsu…
Why do people around me think that this is a ‘phase’ that I ought to ‘grow’ out of?
Even this 3rd degree jap acquaintance who used to be a JE fan when she was in highschool said that I still have till I am 25 before fangirling becomes unacceptable.

Really? This is not something immature because it isn’t merely an obsession.
It is my choice for this to be PART of my way of life, regardless of age and the associated social expectations.

I have nothing to be ashamed of! and most definitely nothing to grow out of.
I am not loving Tsu in the hope that one day I will actually MARRY him… takitsuba makes me beyond happy and everything else good, I don’t think anything else comes close to this sort of feeling.

It’s too hard to explain? Especially to people who are too practical and sensible to let themselves be caught up in ’something like fangirling’.

I’ve been playing Daydreamer from SCP on repeat… love their voices… and tsu’s bobbing head

After months of neglect, I suddenly feel the need to blog again.

It’s been an unbelievably rocky start to 2008 and things do not seem to be improving any time soon… any happiness now seems to be false and short-lived.
But… I think of Tsu to recharge. learn from his spirit. try to absorb his independence and strength.

He is not just my idol, he is my role model.