Recently, I have been feeling very bittersweet inside because I’ve been watching a lot of T&T debut period clips.

They were just so innocent and innocent looking, little boys all starry eyed and fresh into the world.

Takki was just like a mini, rounder version of himself now. Although he is still as much of a drama-queen as ever, his air of maturity and fatherliness is much stronger now, especially as his face is now more weathered with emotions and experiences (in a good way of course!). Which is probably also why he’s painfully convincing in his drama roles.

Tsu on the other hand, was so much more passive, soft and preferred to fufufu in the background with his bambi eyes blinking under that kawaii hairdo. He has come such a long way. His charm for me now lies in his maturity and drive for life, while retaining that sweetness and fufufu laughter. Obviously, this is besides liking every single one of his body parts. I found myself admiring his fingernails… lol.

Unit wise, I do not think there is a need for me to spell out why the feeling I get is both bitter and sweet, but this feeling just overwhelms me when I watch them perform True Heart. Their first original release together, and with such earnest vocals and harmony *sigh* I really wish that I was part of their fan-campaign for a duo debut. I’m just glad that their bond is as strong as ever… though it has since evolved many times over. This is a unit built on trust, love, and a desire to better themselves. I would say that the biggest charm of T&T besides talent, is genuineness. Yes, they are GENUINELY cute, GENUINELY care for each other and GENUINELY grateful to the fans.

This plainly leads to one thing: If we GENUINELY like, and want them to keep doing what they love, we have to buy originals because we neither contribute to concert ticket sales (hardly anyways) nor TV ratings. But with that being said, the DVD sale figure so far is quite a cheerful one! minna otsukaresamadeshita.

These scans are from Weekly Oricon, one of my favorite photoshoots ever as you can tell from my header, haha! Just look at those faces… *sigh again* lol!!
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Moving swiftly on to the Dame Con… I’m actually supposed to be studying because of a mock exam tomorrow. Haha… part of me is still hoping that it is meant to be an April Fool’s joke when I turn up for it tomorrow.

*eyes adjust to tsu’s long hair*

- Twist during CR opening ^^
- They’re sweaty right from the beginning… haha. usually I find sweaty guys = smelly, but I’m sure T&T smell like flowers all the time :3
- THEM SKIPPING DOWN THE WALKWAY during the opening of ho summer khsdfioeshIORUYS9348u KAWAII.
- ai shi te ru ze… heheheheheh tsu let out a little smile during his name calling segment. and takki’s ‘Chinese’ at the end… LOOOL the fans were not that impressed by that confession eh?
- the hilarious uchiwa-kissing battle call segment. SO ADORABLE!!! towards the end, I thought tsu was stomping back to the main stage to kiss takki LOL
- PRIDE O___O again! I love it when they dance ’seriously’ together like this.
*EDIT: hot buns fresh out of the oven*
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- Diamond is hot as usual… Harucon DVD diamond was one of the things that transformed me into this crazy tsuba fan
- Love the stage set during natsu no kaze
- Mischief during rabu lucky!
- Tsu’s ADORABLE SMILES during Hey! listen to the music… how to resist?!
- Samurai… tsubarnold… slammed his mikestand onto the ground so hard that the mike spun into the air and he had to pick it up!! I had to rewind to check if I actually saw the right thing.
- Where do i begin about koi yo… I’m finally seeing it in high res! its just so sweet… and the staff really put together some fantastic footage
- I really like sadame, the whole feel of it, the choreography and costumes.
- The starting of edge is so hot! *chokes* his tousled hair, simple white top and jeans… and those MOVES!!!!! with him just silhouetted in that red smoke. haha but I think those jrs are too chibi for this sort of dance :X
- Kamira Tamara haha… the arm pumping actions are super fun…
- Hito natu no is one of my favorite songs to watch live… the feeling is just so liberating!!!!
- Yumemo… wow… takki is still so energetic
- The way they were mouthing the words during each other’s verses when singing Epilogue……… and the stairs, white feathers and white suits are so beautiful
- HEHEHEHHEE picking feathers out of each others hair……………… *DIES* such a tender moment there
- I always find the Takitsuba call so phenomenal… hahaha I felt really bad for the announcer when I was at last year’s kurikon. He probably knows what he’s saying is useless, but he has to say it anyway; it’s almost as if he’s part of the encore segment!
- hahaha was it tsu’s naughty idea to trick the fans during encore… all the ‘USO desu!’ I really regret not getting the Dame con tour shirt now T__T
- They’re both so INSANELY cute during the ENTIRE encore!!! I already liked the eurobeat version of venus from the cd… and Tsu really gets into the beat and feel of music really well (I want to see him drunk and dancing :X)

Crossed the timezone again. Just found out that I have a mock exam coming Tuesday… hooray!!! T___T

Flight was uneventful, but it was interesting watching Sweeney Todd while eating my dinner. Feeling a sense of loss again! I hate this feeling…

ANYWAY, this post is to wish dearest Takizawa Hideaki a happy (one day belated) 26th birthday. As always, my wish is only for him to be happy and healthy. Otanjoubi omedetougozaimasu~

I ‘m looking forward to what he brings us in Enbujou, and I hope he doesn’t attempt anything dangerous!!

hello everyone!!!

I MISS SEEING T&T ON TV!

and the latest myojo and poporo is so cute ^^ I’ll probably scan it later today it if someone hasn’t already

I AM GOING CRAZY!!!!

Overflowing with love for Tsu…
Why do people around me think that this is a ‘phase’ that I ought to ‘grow’ out of?
Even this 3rd degree jap acquaintance who used to be a JE fan when she was in highschool said that I still have till I am 25 before fangirling becomes unacceptable.

Really? This is not something immature because it isn’t merely an obsession.
It is my choice for this to be PART of my way of life, regardless of age and the associated social expectations.

I have nothing to be ashamed of! and most definitely nothing to grow out of.
I am not loving Tsu in the hope that one day I will actually MARRY him… takitsuba makes me beyond happy and everything else good, I don’t think anything else comes close to this sort of feeling.

It’s too hard to explain? Especially to people who are too practical and sensible to let themselves be caught up in ’something like fangirling’.

I’ve been playing Daydreamer from SCP on repeat… love their voices… and tsu’s bobbing head

After months of neglect, I suddenly feel the need to blog again.

It’s been an unbelievably rocky start to 2008 and things do not seem to be improving any time soon… any happiness now seems to be false and short-lived.
But… I think of Tsu to recharge. learn from his spirit. try to absorb his independence and strength.

He is not just my idol, he is my role model.

I am exhausted in every way possible.

This has really been 2 months of hell and I just have to get through 10 more days before my blue sky holiday.

I just had 10 subjects examined in 3 exams within the week, and there’s another 3 more subjects to go in the last written exam. Since last Thursday, I barely ate, barely slept, never left my suburb and spent every waking hour stuffing information into my head because the exams were every other day, and all in essay format… so there’s no bluffing my way through. Tonight’s my 5 hour breather until my next paper on Monday… so I went shopping, had a nice dinner… did not touch work (although I feel really worried at the same time)

After which I have to start memorizing ALL 13 subjects again plus extra random facts for the final 2 semi-written/interview exams.

10 days.

In other news, my bf is now a certified dentist… haha so he’s over the moon and got sloshed at 5pm yesterday.
I feel like it’s going to be eternity before I get there too. For now…

just 10 days.

I know I haven’t been updating for awhile… (exams too close for comfort) but I was just linked to this video on youtube… and I just can’t contain my anger. MY BLOOD IS FREAKING BOILING and I’m actually tearing.

I AM SO ANGRY AND I HAVE NO WHERE TO VENT IT. FU*()#U$#)Q($UQ#)($U(#$*U(Q#$#$QQ#$RKQ#.

Ironic isn’t it? He turns 26 and I’m still calling him baby. Can’t help it if I feel motherly instincts towards him. lol

Happy 26th Birthday Tsubasa!!!

He must have leveled himself up time and time again this year, with his travels and WWP etc etc etc…
But I hope he never loses his innocence and love for life

and THANK YOU kamisama, Tsumama and Tsupapa for bringing him into this world. Many people’s worlds now go round because of him.

Although I can’t celebrate in style because of my exams, I managed to finish up early last night despite battling some serious cramps and scanned a selection of photos.
I just flipped through my photoalbum, and scanned at random whichever ones caught my eye
Mostly the ones with his egao ^_^
Toothy smile, smile without teeth, baka smile, slight hint of a smile, break a million hearts smileeeee
Gomen ne, Takki. I intended to scan a lot of unit photos, but now is just not a good time.

haha. Looking at what I’ve scanned now, they really can’t be more random. Just a mishmash of shop photos, con venue photos and dafuya photos.
Eeek I just realized that I have not renamed the files…

Anyways, scans behind the jump. All images enlarge to a pleasing size when u click on them!

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I can’t wait for this case presentation to be over!!! Super nervous about it… but I have a short break planned for later tonight (ie. after I go to sleep and wake up) and after that its full steam ahead. At least this will give me some time to breathe and hold a mini private celebration for album release + b’day. YOOOSHHHH~~

ARIENAI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! for once, Australian post has impressed me.

Buzzer rang at 7.45am, and in my mind… ‘it can’t be…’

and IT IS!!!! my albums are here!!!

got to get ready for uni now, but… kawaii ^_^ I feel like I can go 100000% of the way today.